What a crazy month this has been. I need to break these updates up a bit, this is a looong post with way too many photos.
In big news for our family, AJ quit his job and is now running his own business from home. He has been running a small digital business on the side for the past 2 years and it got to the point where he couldn’t do both jobs and be a father. He has already missed out on a lot because he is always working and I feel like a solo parent a lot of the time. We are both beyond exhausted. So he decided to quit his very good, secure, well-paying job (eeeeeek) and build up his business. I am so happy to have him around more to help. It just feels like a massive weight has been lifted. He can work any time, so it means we can do family things during the day and he can work in the evening. It has got off to a rocky start though because he has been incredibly busy catching up on months worth of work over the past few weeks and has been working 18 hour days, but that won’t be forever.
It also looks like I am going to go back to work part time soon. I wasn’t due to go back until June, but I have capacity now that AJ will be home to look after Augie and they need the extra pair of hands. Plus we could do with the money now that we don’t have AJ’s salary. It was always our plan that we would try and share care of Augie and both work part time so that we have a really good balance. I have mixed feelings about going back to work… I don’t know what else to say for now. Let’s see what happens.
Age: Holy shit. I have a 6 month old baby. It is just doing my head in that he is so big now. I think I thought I would have everything under control by the time he was 6 months old… nope… still got no idea. I had a minor freak out that I should have the perfect baby routine by now because he’s 6 months old and not a newborn. That he should be able to self-settle (the Holy Grail) and link his sleep cycles during the day. We had his 6 month appointment with the child and maternal health nurse and she made me feel much better about everything. I felt like I was the only mum who didn’t have a perfectly sleeping baby and she reassured me that he is completely normal. Phew.
For almost the entire month Augie was in leap 5… and it kicked our arses. This month all the good sleeping routine and my chilled out baby went out the window. I think that teething also contributed and all the travel we did over Christmas and being away from home. It was a tough month.
Feeding: It was hit and miss this month. Some days he was on a feeding strike and then he would guzzle all the milk. On average, he is drinking about 750-800 mls of formula a day though.
Over Christmas I decided to totally stop breast feeding. I had been still giving him one feed a day in the morning, but he was growing increasingly frustrated with my lack of supply and it just felt like the right time. I did it while I was staying with family and there was lots going on so that I wouldn’t have time to get too sad about it.
We only just started solids right before he turned 6 months. I know that the trend in mums these days is to start from 4 months, but I dragged my feet on this one a little bit. I just felt a bit overwhelmed and didn’t know how to do it and I also get a bit sad about my little baby growing up. Not to mention all the extra work and mess. Who needs it, right? Anyway, he’s really not interested in food so far. I think he still needs to learn the concept of eating and then we’ll be fine. Oh, and of course starting Augie on solids wasn’t as scary as I made it out to be in me head. I worried over nothing. Story of my life!
Sleeping routine: Oh my god. Who took away my easy sleeping baby??? Augie has been sleeping through the night since he was about 10 weeks and this month it suddenly stopped. Some days he woke because he needed more milk (because he refused to drink during the day) but most of the time he just wanted to play. He was never upset or crying, just up for a party. Yay…
It was just frustrating because we were staying with my brother and sister-in-law over Christmas and I was really looking forward to some chilled out evenings with many bottles of wine, but Augie made that difficult. Oh well, I never mind him being awake as long as he isn’t crying, I can’t take the crying, it breaks my heart.
So we ended up co-sleeping with Augie for the first time ever. It was the only way he would settle down and stop rolling around his cot and sleep. I actually found it quite nice. It’s fun to wake up to little hands on your face and a big smile in the morning. AJ was really stressed about it though and he slept on the floor because he was worried about rolling on top of Augie. Fair enough too, he is a very heavy sleeper and I have been known to cop one of his elbows in the eye during the night, so we couldn’t risk it happening to Augie.
Day sleeps have also been hard work. They have never been that easy with Augie, but this month they were even harder. It would take me so long to get him to sleep and then 25 minutes later he is wide awake again. It has been pretty exhausting to be honest. I have also been working to drop his last nap of the day, taking him from 4 sleeps a day to 3 sleeps. He is always so over-tired by the end of the day, that it’s too much work to actually get him to sleep and then it delays his bed time until 8.00 pm. Instead we are skipping that last nap and putting him to bed around 6.30 pm. Those last 2 hours of the day are bloody hard work with him though… he is so hyped up and over-tired. That’s when I get his dad to take over and be super fun dad!
- First Christmas! We drove to AJ’s mum’s on the 23rd and stayed the night, then drove to Albury (which is half way from AJ’s mum’s to Sydney) and stayed in a hotel on the 24th and then on Christmas day we drove to Sydney to visit my brother, sister-in-law and niece. My dad and step mum also came to Sydney and we had a lovely family Christmas. We didn’t get there until the late afternoon, but my sister-in-law cooked a wonderful dinner and we unwrapped presents and had a great night. We stayed with them for almost a week and I was actually really sad to leave. It was so nice getting to spend time with my niece and seeing her and Augie interact. It’s hard having your family live so far away.
- Augie’s first interstate trip to NSW (Sydney).
- We are rolling! Well he had been rolling previously, but it was more of a one-off. Now he does it ALL OF THE TIME. In fact, this has been another sleep barrier, because why sleep when you can roll around your cot? He is really on the move now. I constantly look over to him on the floor and say “how did you get over there?”.
- He had his first swim in the paddle pool at my brother’s house. It was really no different to being in the bath, except it was outside. He seemed to have fun.
- We took him to the beach for the first time. We went to Torquay for a friend’s birthday. The poor little boy was just miserable from teething, but he was a trooper and did really well. We dipped his feet in the water, but didn’t want to take him in because he was not feeling well at all.
- We bought him a play jumper thing because he bloody loves standing up. I try to put him on the floor and he locks his legs and wants to stand, so now he can stand in his jumper and play. He loves it.
- His new trick is sitting. One day I just noticed he was steady and could totally sit on his own now. He can still have a fall after a while… which isn’t great on the hardwood floors. We bought a mat for the floor, but it still gives him a fright when he face plants.
- He is suddenly really engaged with playing with actual toys. He has always played with his play gym, but now you can give him a toy and he pushes the buttons and picks up things, laughs at the music and just has an absolute ball.
Achievements: I think 15 hours in the car, across 3 days, staying in 3 new places was a big enough achievement. Plus a 10 hour drive home in one day. Augie handled it wonderfully. On the trip back from Sydney he slept all the way from Gundagai to home (4 and a half hours). It was kind of annoying though because we wanted to stop for Maccas, but we were too scared to stop or even go through the drive through window for fear of waking him up. Give us some warning next time Augie, we were starving!
Things we have learned: My mantra this month has been “this too shall pass”. It has been a tough month, but I have already learned that every bad phase passes. In the moment it feels dark and like it will never end, but it always does.
Appearance: Well he is still bloody cute! He is so chubby and delicious… so edible (actually I was pretending to eat his hand the other day and accidentally bit his finger and made him cry. Whoops).
He is 8.5 kilos and 67.5 cm… which makes him average for length and a bit above average for weight. We have no concerns about that of course because he is strong and healthy and perfect.
He is starting to get more hair. Go Augie! It looks completely blonde in some light and dark brown in other light. It’s so weird… I think it’ll keep getting darker. Though I had blonde hair when I was little, so who knows!
Me as a toddler
His eyes are still slate blue, with tinges of hazel coming through. They change a lot and I have noticed they go pale blue when he isn’t feeling well.
Still no teeth, but I can feel some rough patches where the teeth are trying to poke through. The poor little guy has had some tough days with sore gums, but nothing some panadol and lots of mum cuddles can’t fix.
Mummy update: Well I ate like a mad person over Christmas. I fell into some really bad habits and ate worse than I have in years. I think all the stress from Christmas, the travel and Augie being out of sorts just got to me. My anxiety really played up over Christmas, which is normal for me and I comfort ate… which is also normal for me. I was still pretty disappointed in myself for how I handled things, but I am on top of it now and feeling much better.
I am still doing the 16/8 diet and normally eating between 1.00 pm and 9.00 pm and fasting the rest of the time. When I do eat, I am mostly eating veggies, lean meat and legumes and staying away from carbs and snacks as much as possible. I didn’t weigh myself this month because I didn’t want to see the damage from Christmas…
Oh and can I just say one more thing. My god, my back is killing me. I have a sharp pain shooting up on my left side (where I hold Augie) and it is getting quite debilitating. I have started seeing a physio, but so far it hasn’t helped much. I think it just comes with being a (fat and unfit) mum maybe?!